Finding the Anonymous God!

There is this incessant urge in me to find and know who the most High God is, but the quest unfortunately is a cul-de-sac kind of pursuit due to the numerous and varying teachings and doctrines that abound in the world. 

The doctrines from these countless number of religions that can be found around can be very contradictory and misleading while some of the similarities can be said to be at ease with our basic understanding of the world and even transits comfortably in continuum. Many of these doctrines do not make sense in some instances depending on your understanding of your environment and sometimes, due to the fact that, the veil masking these teachings and ways are too thin that it can be seen through.

There is always that human element or selfish tendency that has nothing to do with divinity and to add up, they come clouted with personal pursuits for happiness rather than the supposed crusade for God.

In my quest as a god to know God, there are things that I have to know. There are things I have to know to set my mind at ease and also to set the tone for clarity in my mind and since one of God’s attribute is enlightenment, I don’t think it would be out of place or over-ambitious to want to bask in the light. I am tired of being asked to truncate my quest because I want to Know God.

I remember when as a kid around eight years, I walked to my mum on a typical day while she was hanging clothes she had washed on the drying line and asked her “Mum, who created God?” She looked at me askance, with jaws dropped as if I had just sold Jesus Christ again to the Chief Priest and the Elders for the second time. I knew instantly that, I had crossed the curious threshold and was waiting for what would follow.

She heaved and asked me why I wanted to know God after what seemed an eternity. I just told her that, it’s because I wanted to know since it just occurred to me that she gave birth to me, and her by my grand mum and grand mum by great grand mum and so on and so forth till infinity; thus God, and that is where the buck stops, therefore, I want to know how He came about.  She then asked me to relax and forget it, because she didn’t know the answer herself.  She also admonished me to even stop thinking about it because I cannot find the answer. And that was it. End of discussion.

Since then, I have never really discussed this issue with anyone except a few lip-glossing interactions I had with other knowledge seekers like me and that was even done on the edge of fright because we have heard from other quarters that, thoughts of it will get us mad but I never stopped tossing the question and its related thoughts in my mind until now that I wish to discard it, by writing it down, hoping that someone might eventually come across it and give me an answer even though I doubt that.

I strongly doubt if I will get the answer because this is not a topic that is discussed in Christendom and I will be damned if it should now be introduced into their fold. It’s a no-go area and I am cool but how can we be looking for something we don’t know?